Realizations...

Hi there!  It's Mattye. I am a Licensed Massage Therapist and Artist.  It's nice to meet you!  My husband and I are beginning a fitness journey together, and want to invite you along too!  For years my husband and I have been yo-yo-ing around on the health and fitness circle.  We've tried everything from raw veganism to now Paleo due to food intolerances, allergies, etc.  There's always a wake-up call, no matter who you are.  They present themselves in different ways, of course, but eventually we all come to the understanding that what we think we want isn't worth the cost.

In my case, the cost is pain.  Years of grains, beans, legumes, capsaicin and simple carbs have taken their tolls on my body and now I live in pain thanks to a leaky gut.  The food just ain't worth it.  If that wasn't enough, I am finding myself on the road to recovery from a torqued hip and twisted spine that have cost me alot of my current mobility.  Some good chiropractic care and massage plus a prosthetic lift and I should be right as rain.

Have you had your epiphany moment yet?   Mine came about a week ago after a health assessment - wherein I was told that I am carrying 126 lbs of fat and 143 lbs of ME.  These two numbers are significant, in that almost 30 years ago, I was in an unhappy marriage to an abuser and weighed 126 lbs at that time.  I presently weigh 269 lbs.  My goal weight has been 143 lbs each time I have tried to lose the weight I gained after I left that marriage.  The epiphany?  Well. I'm of the opinion that no one gets left behind - especially on the battlefield.  What I realized is that I have been carrying the broken, shattered me in the form of those 126 lbs of fat ever since I walked away!  What I know now is that it's okay to put that part of me down now - and it's been okay for a long time...I just didn't realize it.